the one within us

蓝玫瑰

2010-06-29T01:15:00.005+08:00

让人感动是一种很可怕的动机

尤其是不自觉的那一种

让人在不设防的情况底下

任人宰割

我是罪恶深重的思想犯 =P

做我的蓝色精灵与我翱翔天空吧？

纯文艺恋爱

2010-05-02T01:00:00.005+08:00

当我走进戏院的那一刻银幕上已经上映了一幕幕熟悉又陌生的场景。原来我对《初恋红豆冰》其实没有很大的期待，只是抱着支持本地创作的心就掏出了皮包，用区区几元买了一整个下午的沉醉。

记得电影的预告片有一段这样的词-“我喜欢他，他喜欢他，他喜欢他，他也喜欢他”。其实我觉得这句小学生都明白的句子背后道出一个现实中不可否认的现实。电影描写的是纯纯的爱，只是纯粹喜欢，没有利益纠葛，没有现实的考量，但是一样被现实锁进一个牢固的框框里。

那天我一整个下午内心都有点纠结，但是其实我的经历没有这个故事那么撼动人心。纠结的原因不明，尤其打架鱼最后一次抱着botak的那一幕，内心有一股酸意涌出 - 至少他们真正地爱过，“纯文艺”得爱过。在看电影之前也没有很喜欢那首歌，但是出来以后对这首歌的感触绝对不低于电影的感触。

" 你是汹涌的海浪我是疲惫的沙滩

暖暖的斜阳吊在我们的肩膀

你用醉人的眼波拴住恋爱的绳索

那么痴迷那么绮丽

你轻轻柔柔的细述着槟城下的雨

淋湿你的长发几十年来抹也抹不去

啊我会慢慢的想起

几十年都不会忘记... "

几十年都不会忘记。。。。？

现在这个世界，几十天没有忘记都好了咯。。。唉！

思绪整理

2010-04-17T22:32:00.004+08:00

本人有一个奇怪的习惯，就是一忙起来桌子就会变得一团乱。常常有人告诉我一个人的书桌反映的其实就是他的思绪，所以乘着几天的空档，我也慢慢收拾起来。这次我的桌子乱的程度可以说是以往从来没有达到过的程度，我不知道是否这样代表着我的思绪也是如此。

人生啊，就是有那么一些时候你不会发现时间的流逝。其实桌子上的东西都是近期的东西，但是我还是能把玩上一段时间，再慢慢把它放进它应该存在的地方。秒针嘀嗒嘀嗒流转之间，现在，未来和过去都穿插其中，所以考量，计划和回味同时发生的神奇化学效应是只有个人能领略的滋味。这个私密空间不能被打扰，它是最孤单的乐趣，但是还是会让人无法抽身。

无意间和朋友谈起对爱情的感官，突然发现自己又回到所谓的天真岁月。过去几年都觉得自己太过于现实，进而渐渐与所谓的赤子之心的距离越来越远。对爱情我从来都是完美主义者，也可以说是童话式爱情的拥护者。当然以一个成人而言，我当然知道童话故事的结构是，王子和公主从此过着幸福快乐的生活，美满得不得了，但是旁边的小矮人没有人会记得他的名字。这是现实，在童话中也蕴藏的现实。所以有哪一个人能逃得了现实的领域？

朋友策责我的天真，认为在爱情里没有那么完美的事情。他竟然用到“草莓”形容我，其实其中的惊讶真的是无法形容。从他口中我听到很多我从来没有听到过的形容词。这时的我有些哭笑不得，急忙为自己的理想辩护。当然不切实际是现实，但是我告诉他，就是因为那么完美，那么令人向往，才值得追求与等待。其实现在这是我对感情的基本态度，因为本人实在很不屑现代的速食爱情观，认为爱情太容易就不会珍惜，也许是自讨苦吃（所谓犯贱），也许本人一直以为人该有的基本坚持（好听点就酱，不好听就是笨）。

世界依然残酷，人们已然无情，如果最后连爱情都不能单纯一些，人生还能追求些什么？那难道最后对着自己最心爱的人还要勾心斗角？还要有一点怀疑？

无题

2010-01-18T04:21:00.002+08:00

随着时光的逝去,发现自己除了常质疑他人，也开始越来越怀疑自己。

连读的课程，都要我们学会“适当的怀疑，大胆的假设”这个所谓的合理科学态度，而让我在反反复复中证明自己不是读书的料。也许该说，社会不适合我，不。。。。。应该我不适合这个社会。社会不需要迁就我而我需要去适应社会。残酷。无情。现实。

其实不需要多大的太阳就可以看见我身后的黑暗面。而且随着角度的不同，它也相应地以不同地姿态告诉你阳光根本没有战胜它的余地。阳光之下可以有阴影，但是阴暗之中一定没有阳光。所以黑暗是绝对的，而光明不过是暂时的。

质疑自己的感觉在一个又一个沁心透凉的夜晚中更显突出。头脑清醒地想要逃避，不想承认自己到底有多么失败和多么无能。

我根本就是失眠的绝缘体。别人说，失眠是因为心中那一颗大石无法挪开的后果。我从来不会失眠，但是心头的郁闷感从何而来？我问自己，那一颗大石在那里，怎么我找不到它。后来我发现自己不会失眠的原因，原来那个不是石头，是一根飘荡的羽毛，捉摸不定，但是同样扰人清梦。近来明明身心都累得要命，却老是在半夜惊醒，就无法再安心地睡下去。其实，安心的感觉在最熟悉的被窝里都无法被满足了。纳闷，真的有点手足无措，而这个感觉，今天应该感觉得最鲜明。

我渴望的简单，有时，复杂得太可怕了些。

轉載：男人

2009-12-24T13:29:00.002+08:00

十歲以前，就不說了，無非是淘氣和不懂事。

十三、四歲的時候，開始對女孩有好感，但是那時候他離女孩遠遠的，並且以討厭女孩自居，生怕被同伴嘲笑。

十五歲的時候，聽到大人們說某某男人好花，把女朋友甩了，女孩自殺了。他覺得這人真狠毒，自己將來一定要做個痴情的男人，一定要一生只愛一個人。

十六歲的時候，他喜歡上了一個女孩，但是他不敢和她說。仍然和往常一樣，髒兮兮的在灰土飛揚的操場上踢球。只在女孩走出校門的時候，躲在二樓的窗戶上看她的背影，他覺得她一定是個天使。

十七歲的時候，有個女孩喜歡上了他，但是他離她很遠，他心裡面只有自己愛的那個女孩，他覺得看別的女孩都是對她的不忠。

十八歲的時候，看了一個MTV，感動得想哭，他想，如果自己的女孩失去了雙眼，他一定會像男主角會毫不猶豫的把自己的眼睛給她，讓她能看到光明。

十九歲的時候，高考了。終於和自己暗戀的女孩分別，坐火車去學校的時候，感覺自己離她越來越遠，心像被掏空了一樣。還在想自己一定不會忘記她，等到自己成功以後一定要去找她。

二十歲的時候，聽到有人講黃色笑話，覺得這人真可恥。

二十一歲的時候，她的回信中告訴他，自己有了男朋友。偷偷的哭了一個晚上。

二十二歲的時候，他向一個女孩表白，女孩說「你是個好人，可是我還小。」他想，我的確是個好人，他說「沒關係，我可以等你。」心想「我不會像那些花心的人一樣，三年五年我也能等。」

二十三歲的時候，說自己還小的女孩和一個帥哥戀愛了。他很納悶，長大原來可以這樣快。

二十四歲的時候，他又向一個女孩表白，女孩說「你是個好人，可是我並不適合你。他納悶很久，我是好人妳怎麼還不適合我呢？

二十五歲的時候，他又追求一個女孩，女孩接受了他。他開始很幸福的為未來拼搏，他想「一時的開心只是暫時的，只有努力拼搏，他和她才能有快樂的未來。」但是，半年以後，女孩和他分手了。只是因為另外一個男孩會說讓她開心的話。女孩說「你是個好人，是我對不起你。」他似乎明白問題所在，他是個好人。

二十六歲的時候，他開始墮落，交網友。打扮得時尚而酷，而且漸漸的學習著討好女孩的話。不久，他有了個女朋友，雖然他對她也很好，可是，他心裡知道，自己並不愛她。

二十七歲的時候，他和女孩分手了。他對女孩說「你是個好女孩，是我對不起你。」

二十八歲的時候，他嘗試了一夜情，發現別人能做的，自己也一樣。

二十九歲的時候，他學會了講黃色笑話，並且以看旁邊的女孩子臉紅為樂趣。

三十歲的時候，他忽然發現自己變得很有能力追求到女孩，但是卻沒有了愛的能力。

其實每個男孩，本來都是想做一個感情專一的好男人的。
其實每個男孩，本來看女孩子都是看臉而不是胸部的。
其實每個男孩，本來都是不會講黃色笑話的。
其實每個男孩，本來都是渴望愛一個人直到永遠的。

只是，沒有任何女孩愛這樣的男孩，
她們覺得這樣的男孩太幼稚，太古板，沒有情趣。
於是男孩開始改變，變成女孩喜歡的那種。

嘴角掛著壞壞的笑。
玩世不恭或者幽默。

開始學會說甜言蜜語而不是心裡想說的話。
開始學會假裝關心。

學會給女孩送小飾物討好她。
學會如何追求，如何把握愛情。

或者看破紅塵，遊戲情場，成為女人很恨的那種男人。
他們可以很容易俘獲女孩子的心。

但是他們也會在黑的夜裡叼著煙流淚。
心裡有愛的時候，沒有女孩
有了女孩，卻永遠沒有了愛的感覺。

在聽到女人抱怨世上沒有一個好男人的時候，
他們不會再去努力做個好男人，只是微笑著擦肩而過。

don't care

2009-12-23T01:26:00.002+08:00

Did I act like I don't care?

But in fact I think that I don't really care.

Therefore?

I DON'T CARE.

I WILL CONTINUE MY LIFE AS USUAL.

broken

2009-12-07T13:37:00.001+08:00

well lastly the moment has come.

broken!!

bai bai babe~

i will miss u :P

RIDICULOUS!!!

2009-11-16T19:07:00.005+08:00

Imagine yourself being in this situation.

"Watching" another guy trying to impress the girl you used to like in a closed space, which mean only three of you only in a completely quiet living room!!!

The story begins by I need to take her from the bus station as it's raining outside. We went

makan together before we go back to her place, then on the way back comes a call which telling her this person wanna celebrate her birthday and give her a birthday present. She politely asked him to come over a bit later since we are stucked in the jam (yes not butter :P).

By the time we reached her place, that guy already waited there for quite some time!!! Quickly she rushed in and prepare all the stuffs to cut the cake, e.g. forks, plates, knife... The situation were soooooo embarrassing that I have to stone there pretending that I know nothing about it. I lied that I am here to rush assignment with her, but I really did feel myself like a super duper big LIGHT BULB in the house, but I can't do anything but just staring at the computer while they singing the birthday song, cutting the cake, and talking some bull shits that I don't really care.

FINALLY, THE MOST INTERESTING PART. Guess what he bought for her? TADAAAAAA!!!

I guess most of you guys know how pricey it is. This is the figure of her and her besttie. My mouth was wide opened when i saw this!! But this stupid girl really have no idea what's going on and don't even have a clue how much is this thingy!!

He just left a few minutes ago and I already done this post. Really NBTD here. But anyway I had fun laughing at her because this is even more funny than comedy!!! HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS!!!

Ok la anyway, wish you all the best birthday girl. =D

it's complicating.

2009-11-08T02:22:00.002+08:00

I didn't blog lately not because that life is that boring so that I have nothing to blog about. It's totally a CROSS!! I have too much things to tell which I don't even know where I supposed to start from. But it's alright, I can keep it to myself.

In short, things have gone complicated. I'm kind of lost... But still figuring ways out. I believed I will make things clear sooner or later...!

Ps. Happy birthday to all the Nov babes~ Muiz, Alan, Bea, Mel, Yuan, Wei Ling, Lee Yee, Kiko and many more friends!! Sorry couldn't name you all.... :P

P.ps. Thumbs up for the movie!! Bea good job!! =)

it's a bad day.

2009-10-29T23:09:00.001+08:00

Everything that happened, left me speechless.

Despite all the bad lucks at the day time, the shocking news at the night did really impacted me.

URGH! *shrug helplessly* *sigh*

Sometimes I really wonder. Maybe I do not deserve all the happiness.

missing no one but just love it =)

2009-10-19T03:24:00.002+08:00

Listening to this song over and over again tonight...

and I found it's satisfied my craving for the sweetness as I found it all that in this song. =)

I have been listened to Tamia's one but it's too low... so I still like their one better!

It's a pleasure by just looking to them singing... hehe. I know I am in love in them already. Haahahahaas.

Tonight I have some complicated feelings. Can't really tell what it is but it's certainly not good. Just found that I really can't depending on anything else beside myself. But anyway, these sweet girls just cheer up me by a bit. =)

牵挂

2009-09-30T23:56:00.001+08:00

人来人往

何处寻一棵桑

盘根错节中

寻

一丝一缕

原来。

2009-09-14T04:32:00.002+08:00

原来感情是加速度的最佳写照。

与日俱增与瞬间下降也是那一瞬间。

那么何时才是那一瞬间。

睡不着。

总是觉得缺少了什么。

顺其自然的无为吧。反正自己也不知道要怎样。

应景

2009-09-08T01:37:00.002+08:00

他抱着吉他轻轻地唱那么轻轻得像她一样那么不着痕迹但是为什么每一字一句都唱进心坎里？

it's going to haunt me for quite a few days.... =S

2009-09-03T00:51:00.003+08:00

THUMBS UP for a new HK movie by Aaron Kok - "Murderer"! Can't believe it's an Asian production! Even better than some so-called Hollywood movies...!

I realliy hope I can write a review on it. Seriously everyone! A must watch movie this year. But be prepared, lolz, mentally. Especially I am interested in your reactions if you are a child lover. lolz!! So tell me if u watched it. Hahahahahahas.

For now it's the time to off. Good night world. =)

the thoughts

2009-08-23T10:45:00.003+08:00

Went to the bed at 12 yesterday. Surprisingly early for me. Hahahas. Even my parent was like "woahh... can't believe it!" lolz.

Couldn't sleep well in the night. The thoughts linger around the mind just don't want to stop.

Wake up quite early this morning. Don't know why just can't get to sleep back in this great cloudy sunday monday. Should be perfect for sleeping!

Enjoyed spending some time with myself. It's quiet - so quiet that I could hear my heart beats.

Final is coming soon, but I don't have the mood to pick up revision.

I am hungry now, but I don't want to eat alone.

Trying to stop myself for thinking the same matter over and over again, yet failed again.

Listening to the emo songs early at the morning. =S
Not a good thing to kick start a day.

My stomach has been upset for few days, but the medicine doesn't helps.

Do not translate my chinese articles with translator, as the true meaning will not shows up, and it turns to be extremly weird. Just talk to me and I will be a story teller again. =)

Yea, emo again. But what's wrong to be emo. I enjoy emo sometimes. But not today, not at this moment. It's quite disturbing.

无题的伤感

2009-08-12T13:17:00.002+08:00

没发生什么事情就是在自己的想象中的失去已经在脑海中不断上映就知道有一天
这首歌描述失去的感情十分细腻其实不只感情任何东西的失去都有这样的遗憾响亮地声音唱出的竟然是如此寂静的忧伤淡淡地在空气中漂泊的悲伤仿佛都挤进了房间。。。

我不是一定要你回来只是当又把回忆翻开除了你之外的空白还有谁能教我来爱

故事从这里开始。

2009-07-31T05:48:00.000+08:00

那年我还是高一。一如往常，颓废而没有意义的日子一直延续。这是2004的最好写照，四就是死，

死鱼一样的生活像梦魇一样纠缠着我。那是我认为在人生中最大的空白。现在回想起来，那年我做过些什么，认识什么人，上过哪些课，竟然是异常的模糊。最清晰的是一直沉浸在虚拟的世界中不断按着滑鼠，企图希望刺激能摆脱一身的无力感。

中午12时是每天的午餐时间，总是一堆朋友一起走到那食堂里的铁制长桌上。端着一碗一碗白烟袅袅，热腾腾的汤面或是饭食到桌上是一天我最期待的20分钟。有什么比一群好友一起废话连天，大快朵颐还要痛快？

豁然，一对陌生又熟悉的背影从身边闪过，停留在我正前方的桌子坐下。刹那间，我终于体会到所谓的晴天霹雳是什么意思。体会和明白是截然不同的两个阶段，就像是小孩明白成人世界背后的残缺，但是永远不能体会那切身的无奈。虽然事情依然发生而我也已经接受现实，但是活生生的刺激在眼前出现时还是无法妥协那份内心的伤痛。胸腔前仿佛是有一颗无形的大石压着，第一次觉得呼吸都是痛的表现。

生平第一次我停下筷子，留下满碗的遗憾先行离开。留下满桌的错愕和怀疑的眼神。大概谁也没有见过我这个标准的贪吃鬼竟然留下吃不完的食物。认识我深的人都知道我视浪费为最大的罪恶，从来不肯浪费每一颗辛苦。但是那天，真的，我真的咽不下去。

今天我依然清清楚楚记得那份感觉。时空不能倒退，但是情绪可以从演。还以为自己已经是感情麻木的铁石心肠，结果那份痛楚还是一样鲜明。不需要同样的时间地点人物，金迷纸醉多姿多彩的世界依然对我依然残酷。

不同的是今天的我毅然接受。因为我从来都没有资格多说些什么。撕心裂肺地痛过才知道自己真正的活过，对吗？

it's the season again.

2009-07-28T22:30:00.003+08:00

There is a season when couples start to make up.

There is a season also when the couples start to break up.

I guess it's the season now.

The BAD LUCK SEASON.

1 best friend just broke up with the girl friend.

3 best friends are stuggling in a relationship.

More friends are even fear of relationship.

And also they are so many people out there are in bad mood. You-know-who-you-are.

OMG. I hate this season. =(

imperfection

2009-07-28T01:58:00.003+08:00

We do not need to learn how to love a perfect person.

That's in our nature, always seeking for the best one.

TO LOVE, is to accept everything including the bad one.

That's why we need love.

We are all beautifully imperfect.

But trust me, that's what makes love more beautiful.

Tribute to the late Yasmin Ahmad. R.I.P.

歌。情绪

2009-07-21T20:33:00.002+08:00

我不能说是她忠实的歌迷

但是确实

她曾经深深唱到我的心坎

一些能发泄情绪的歌

实在是太可遇不可求了

emo is my inspiration.
最近灵感多到倾泻但是苦于没有适合的时间地点人物让我好好发泄一下情绪
可悲呵呵

茫

2009-07-20T21:00:00.001+08:00

该哭？

该笑？

第一次真的哭笑不得。

事情那么不明朗

那么就继续

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2009-07-17T02:14:00.002+08:00

急速旋转的铜铃在一声巨响后

回荡在路边的声响绕梁三日

阴魂不散

是执著？

是坚持？

是无知？

也许沉浸在旋转的晕眩根本没有理由可言

thank Him for protected me wor =D

2009-07-14T00:14:00.009+08:00

I can't believe I survived this accident.

We were on the Jalan Mahameru (which is one of the busiest road in KL) and eventually the car was lost control and drift on a straight highway!

Our car actually did bumped to the divider then bang into the lamp post.

As you can see in the picture.

Our car is totally facing another direction of the road.

The lamp post was broke and fall down.

We are so lucky because of the 5 reasons below:

1. None of us is seriously hurt.

2.This accident does not involved any second party.

3.The fallen lamp post did not fall into the opposite highway but in between of the divider.

4.We were first bumped into the divider. This stops us from go into the opposite highway.

5.Our car is not followed closely by another car. (Another one more bang means BYE BYE!!)

The situation won't be any better. So thank God la. Hahahahahas. Although you did not pray for me. XD

P.s. I am alright beside the minor injuiry at my left leg. The wound is quite deep and kena the bone i guess. But it's ok la, the leg also numb already. Hahahahahas. So I still can walk la. Something wrong with the right leg as well but I have no idea why. lolz.

exhausted

2009-07-10T01:48:00.002+08:00

i am real tired, both physically and mentally.

These few days I was bombarded with lot of problems and works.

Some very kacao-ing. Some very mafan. Some very confusing. Some can be never solved.

Some I do not even know how to solve.

HEAVY SIGH.

Ok, anyway I still gotta work it out.

If you believe you can, you can. Vince.... GO!

complicated.

2009-07-04T12:23:00.002+08:00

I have no idea what to do next.

It just feel like I was dumped from another peak to the rock bottom.

Thank you for my wishful thinking.

You gave me the dreams and at least for the few days I was really happy.

Now, it's the time back to routine.

happybirthdaytomeow =D

2009-07-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

alwaysgladtohaveafriendlikeyouwhoicanshareeverythingwith. =D

enjoyyournicesaturdayandtellmeyourstoryafterward! XD

happybirthdayagaindearhehehe

transformer frenzy!

2009-06-28T00:57:00.006+08:00

There are too many people who did a lot of reviews on it.

So I am not going to write anything about it.

But its real terrible at the ticket counters in GSC.

The 5 counters are all fulled with the people wit around 100+ who queue up.

However, Counter 6 is just only half a row of people. (around 20+) =S

My 100th post - In memory of Micheal Jackson (August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009)

2009-06-26T07:38:00.009+08:00

I couldn't believe my ears when I got this tragic news. I was driving and unexpectedly this stroked me instantly at the moment the DJ from the radio station says that. Straightly after I am home, I go on to Internet and check about it.

Jun 25 2009 7:28 PM EDT

Michael Jackson Dies At 50

Pop star suffered cardiac arrest at his L.A. home.

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Michael Jackson died Thursday afternoon (June 25) at the age of 50 after suffering cardiac arrest, according to the Los Angeles Times.

Reports say the legendary pop singer suffered cardiac arrest at his home in the Los Angeles neighborhood of Holmby Hills and was not breathing and had no pulse when paramedics arrived after a 911 call around 12:26 p.m. PT. They administered CPR in the ambulance but were unable to revive him. At the hospital, staff attempted to resuscitate Jackson, but he was unresponsive.

From his early career in the 1970s with his family group the Jackson 5 to his decades-long career as a solo artist, Jackson stood as one of the most successful and beloved pop artists of all time.

The Jackson 5's first single, 1969's "I Want You Back," hit #1 on theBillboard charts, and the Motown group went on to become one of the most popular acts during the '70s with hit singles like "ABC," "I'll Be There" and "The Love You Save."

In 1978, Jackson joined Diana Ross in the big-screen musical "The Wiz," an adaptation of the Broadway musical based on "The Wonderful Wizard of Oz." His career as a solo artist took off with 1982's Thriller, which stands as the biggest-selling album of all time. Over the course of his career, with hit albums like Bad andDangerous, Jackson scored five #1 Billboard 200 albums and seven #1 BillboardHot 100 singles.

But Jackson's career faltered as he suffered several scandalous legal battles. In 1994, he settled a civil suit stemming from child-molestation accusations. In 2005,he was acquitted on 10 felony counts in a child-molestation trial brought against him, including four counts of lewd acts on a child under 14 and four counts of administering alcohol to enable child molestation.

Still, he released a greatest-hits album in 1995, which hit #1 on the Billboard chart, and embarked on a hugely successful world tour. His 2001 album, Invincible, also reached the top Billboard slot; it would prove to be his final studio album.

At the time of his death, Jackson was gearing up for a comeback, rehearsing for a series of 50 sold-out shows in London's O2 arena that would jump-start a world tour, a new album and possibly a movie. In what is believed to be his final public appearance, Jackson showed up at a press conference in London wearing one of his signature quasi-military outfits and announced the initial plan for the concerts. Describing the shows as a "final curtain call," Jackson told the assembled crowd of fans and media, "This is it. This is it! I just want to say these will be my final shows, performances in London. ... When I say this is it, it really means this is it."

On June 9, TMZ caught Jackson sitting in a black SUV. Asked if could still do the moonwalk, his signature dance move, Jackson replied, "Why wouldn't I be able to?"

The singer is survived by three children: Michael Joseph Jackson Jr., Paris Michael Katherine Jackson and Prince "Blanket" Michael Jackson II.

Tune in to MTV at 9 p.m. ET on Thursday (June 25) for more on Michael Jackson's death and legendary career. Also, share your memories of the King of Pop by uploading video and comments to Your.MTV.com or joining the discussion below.

[This story was originally published at 6:54 pm E.T. on 6.25.09]

Source : http://www.mtv.com/news/articles/1614744/20090625/story.jhtml

In case you might forgot, this how actually MJ looks like before.

After all, the first question that aroused in my head was the the "Final Curtain Call", which says to be the last tour of The King of Pop in July. Well I guess many MJ's fans have been long waiting. The spoke person for this tour Mr. Philips has been emphasizing MJ is in "incredible health", which passed an extensive four -hour physical with independent third party doctors selected by insurance carriers.

Seriously, now I doubt they might know MJ's health condition problem before they announced the final tour.

Ok, maybe I am too sensitive. Since the cause of death is not identified yet, so it's too early to make any conclusion now. We will see then. Anyway he is a truly legendary artist. Despite of his personal life, his works are all fantastic done. I remembered the first dance move I tried to learn was Moon Walk! I am not a serious fan of him, but he did really did impact to everyone of us.

May Micheal rest in peace.

happy day!! =D

2009-06-26T02:44:00.002+08:00

Today is a happy day. Everything is going well today. Most importantly, linz has came back from Singapore! wooohoooooooooooo!

Ok man, for a best friend I specially open up one post to welcome you la!

SEE! So nice of me. So I guess it worth a meal la? =P

overload!!

2009-06-23T21:22:00.002+08:00

Just went back from gym and appeared to be very energetic. I do not know why either, but it feel totally refreshing. Guess not enough of sleep is not a good reason for being lazy again, hahahas. Too much of works are delaying and I need to get back to the right track asap!

I am taking 2 subjects in business department in a long semester but doesn't makes my life easier. I am still burried by works from college, home, clubs and my own private stuffs.

-By next week, I need to work out the case study for management to present next week.

-By this week, I need to done the website and get it working!!

-Need to check the stock again by next week.

-By end of this week, I need to clear all the letters that almost burried my table!

-Tomorrow I need to join the promotion team to promote our CCS camp in July.

-Preparing job for the camp as well.

-Get the account of Jing Bian done asap!

-Wed and Thu got part time work at night.

-Friday, somebody warned me to not ffk them to watch Transformer 2.

-Next tue to celebrate babi's birthday.

-Got invited to be Elaine's personal manager to marketing her EP and need to prepare with the proposal asap.

-Got invited to be a team leader in FAMINE 30 thats happening in AUG.

-Arranging time to join the UT class.

Most importantly... some private stuffs that disturb me the most la. UNCERTAINTY in life!

What I hate most and love most as well. sigh

i can almost see it.... =D

2009-06-21T01:47:00.004+08:00

The Climb lyrics
Songwriters: Alexander, J; Mabe, J;

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

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i have been long dreaming, and now, it's the time. =D

Keep going man!!

she's not my girl!

2009-06-09T20:31:00.003+08:00

Today I was walking on the street with a new known girl friend (I mean female friend) on the way to makan, some guy friends saw that scene and ask me "you pak tor already ah? who is tha girl?" and makes me so blur. Hey common... I walked with so many girls before tak kan all also my girl friend meh....!! ( but I wish so lolz!!)

Previously I also did

Went to a 3 days trip with ONLY one girl.
Sleep in the same room with ONLY one girl.
Purposely sent a girl from Sunway to PJ, and the journey beginned at 6.30am all the way from my house in Jalan Ipoh.
Talked in the phone with a girl for averagely 3~6 hours per day for a period of 2 years.
Dining with a girl alone and spend more than 200 hundreds for it. ( yea I gave her a treat just to comfort her.)
Give a girl a rose on the Valentine's Day. (Only 1 girl)
Have known all the major secrets of the girls. ( and she knows mine too)

and all these girls are NOT MY GIRL.

(P.S. Frankly, I am not interested in most of them... lolz!)

(P.S.S. For those you-know-who-you-are, please not angry =P I do not mean you girls are not pretty, not cute or anything, just that... you know, we just do not have the feeling right? hehe!)

hahahahahas... so do not judge superficially la. =P

sh*t.

2009-05-19T12:45:00.003+08:00

IMAGINE HOW FRUSTRATED I AM NOW.

This is a short sem for our dept so that the selection of classes are actually very limited. Only ADP's timetable matched our timetable if you want a holiday after the short sem. Other departments are offering long sem including the business subjects I wanted to in. So at the very beginning, I have no choice but was planning to take Spanish class and something else as my selection of electives. However, HELP says thatthose language classes are not counted as the electives that we compulsory to take, unless we take it as an extra (and it was not like that before... I guess HELP is really desperate for money lolz.) I was like okays then, since i still got time to make up my mind. So at the end, unwillingly I take mass comm and sociology. (which I think mass comm is nothing new for me to learn.)

Today I went to my mass comm class early at 8am, then rotting all way in the lab to waiting for the next sociology class at 2pm. I was too bored so I went to check my mail. I GOT AN EMAIL WHICH INFORMING ME THEY REJECTED MY APPLICATION FOR SOCIOLOGY. ( coz the slots are full, and the mail is dated this morning) OMG!! Why don't you inform me tomorrow??? NOW I HAVE BEEN ROTTING HERE FOR HOURS WITHOUT ANYTHING TO DO! BAH... wasting my time.

Sh*t, guess I really have to go back to business department and say bye bye my holidays. *sobs*

muahahahahas XD

2009-05-18T00:41:00.002+08:00

now who is the one being too serious? XD

stress

2009-05-15T02:31:00.003+08:00

I am facing the biggest crisis that I never faced in life before. The stess level is so high that I can't handle it anymore. I deserve all the problems as I myself procrastinate a lot before that. Knowing it is my weakness but never improve after years. BAAAAH!

A warning to self. Ever did it again, go and jump down from KLCC. Like what she said, "dun die oso useless."

emo-ness strikes unexpectedly

2009-05-12T02:54:00.002+08:00

This post should be about a recent trip to Penang. But then I really do not have the mood to edit all those pictures and anything else beside fall into a deep thinking. I guess everyone is having the same problem too. Having a peak period where you are extremly productive but also the moment when you are feel to lazy to do anything even eat. lolz. I myself procrastinate a lots due to this stupid lame reason.

The thought that has linger around my minds for months finally vanished after I found the differences between me and them. They are all perfect beside they are not thinking as much as like me. Sometimes I really feel that rational thinking was causing more problems as it making problem became more and more complicated before you get to solve them. I rather to be a kid so that I can be fearless and do whatever just merely because of I like it!

However reality still reality. People do not necessary understand you but you need to understand them more. How suffer is this to communicate those are not in the same channel as you. So I made up my mind. I would not do anything before I found the real key to the success.

leisure days ending soon T_T

2009-05-06T08:02:00.022+08:00

A letter from HELP which arrived yesterday reminds me the good days are ending soon. I guess HELP is really craving for money because they send the letter to everyone to ask for resource fee! OMG. Tak kan some of my friends who having their nice break far away from KL come back purposely to pay for the stupid fee before their sem starting right? Farking retarted la HELP.

Not really been to anywhere in the holiday. Simply because my holiday is one week shorter than the others since I am having one elective's final one week after all the psychology finals finished. This made the short 2 weeks break even shorter. Sigh.

Beatrice and me were too bored studying so started to camwhores.

EHHH! Why you take the picture with nice looking drink while I have a picture with a bottle of Listerine? UNFAIR! =(

However thanks to my college friends and auntie uncle who just came back from United States making my holiday not so boring. Ohhh no worries. I am sure they are not bringing any viruses back coz they have stayed here for 1 week + already. Nothing unusual. Hahahahas. So last sunday they suggested to have some nice seafoods to fest in Kuala Selangor.

The journey is really long and out of my expectation as I thought it should be quite fast.

Oil palm farms were the scenery I have seen most along the journey. Too bad I missed the cow barn simply because handphone is really not for photo taking. I WANT DSLR LAAA!!

This picture is not taking well enough but still sufficient to tells what I have seen. BIG BLUE SKY! HUGE GREEN FIELD! Hahahahahas. Well although you can see the sky anytime by looking up, but it is really different. For urban kids like us, big blue sky is rare.

Finally we reached the restaurant!

This big crab is really attracting eyes and it's so cute!! =D Can i have crabs as pet? XD (guess I will have eaten them someday lolz)

YES this is the view from the restaurant. Since it was built along the river so the name was "RIVER VIEW". Best name that's suit.

The houses built along the river. Guess they are all fishers or owning restaurant like this. Sometimes I wondering how is the feel sleeping in these houses since you heard the flow of the water all night long and knowing you are sleeping above the water. How if you fall into the water while sleeping? XD
Scary la. Hahahahas.

OK Let's back to the restaurant. This is the menu...!

Ummm actually nothing special. Ordinary fishes, clamps, prawns, crabs and squids with varies of cooking methods. Steam, fry, sizzling, tomyam, teow chew style bla bla bla.

I did not have the chance to picture of all dishes simply the people are just too hungry. Hahahahas. They are craving for foods as they waited too long. We had our lunch 3pm at the afternoon man...

Although we are damn hungry but doesn't make the foods taste nicer. Frankly, most of it sarks. The fish in the picture was the best on the table, just because it do not need anything else to adds the flavour. Freshness speaks it all. All the other dishes are either tasteless or way too sweet!! They really needs to have a new chef.

(Imagine sweet fried prawns and tasteless hard-to-bite fried squids. bah)

This fisherman got his caught in front of me and I watch the whole scene! I feel so happy even not me who got the caught. Hahahahas. But the adults told me that no one wants to eat that fish and only used to feed the cat or dog. Well who cares. Hahahahas.

For the next tempt he got some paper...! Hahahahas. But I do not feel kesian for him after I witnessed the scene he throw the paper back to river. How stupid is this fella. WHY CAN'T YOU THROW IT TO A PROPER PLACE SINCE YOU'VE GOT IT? YOU YOURSELF who depending your living on this river!! I curse you next time you will got the same paper again. Wasting time and causing polution! Bah. Brainless.

At the night we went to uncle house again to have dinner together. The day before he went hunting with his friend and got a wild boar. He cooked the partial of it and the big portion is really too much!! This is what's left over after everyone had enough fest and da pao...! (10++ people ehh!!) So much right? Wild boar really tastes different from some pork that you could get in the market.

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Yesterday was crazy as well. 4 of us went out together for movie and yumcha to enjoy the holiday. Firstly, 3 of us went to watch X man Origin - Wolverine together as Alan already watched it and join us later after the movie finished. The original plan was distrupted due to the rain. Brilliant Alan came up with this brilliant idea to have Sateh in Kajang. So 4 of us headed to Kajang and paid 2 tolls on the way. However the sateh really dissapointed us la. Farking expensive and taste even worse than KL one. Bah. Guess we have the wrong place.

Then we were planned to have a drink. Again brilliant Alan had this brilliant idea to go sky bar for a drink. Oh man, you were wearing shorts! How are you supposed to enter? Then he smartly answered I will throw a RM50 note to the bouncer and ask him to back off! I replied by asking him why do not buy a proper pant but waste your 50 bucks like that. The whole car was full of laughters. LOLZ. But lastly we can't find it and then we changed our mind again and went to a new restaurant in Kepong. Nothing surprising la. Ordinary yumcha place.

So let's me summarised the whole thing was from my home -> KL -> kajang -> KL -> Cheras -> Kepong -> KL -> PJ -> home. I gotta sent hew thong back so I need go to PJ after that. Hahahahas. What a funny day. I never travel like that before in my life. But anway it's a good day hanging around with good friends even though the sateh sarks. Hahahahas.

interesting...!!

2009-04-26T01:46:00.003+08:00

Ok man please read this... I am sure you'll be amazed! Please forgiving me as I do not have the patient and time to translate this thing to the readers who do not understand chinese...

This beggar demonstrating how important is knowledges to us. Please think before you do anything. What ever position you are in, you have an opputurnity to gain yourself a better of if you think critically before you do it, even if you were a beggar.

BUT! Please remember, begging is violating the laws. Hahahahas. So do something else.

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我拎著剛買的levi's從茂業出來，站在門口等一個朋友。一個職業乞丐發現了我，非常專業的、逕直地停在我面前。「先生……行行好，給點吧。」我一時無聊便在口袋裡找出一個硬幣扔給他並同他攀談起來。乞丐很健談。「我只在華強北一帶乞討，你知道嗎？我一掃眼就見到你。在茂業買levi's，一定捨得花錢。」「哦？你懂得蠻多嘛！」我很驚訝。「做乞丐，也要用科學的方法。」他說。我一愣，饒有興趣地問：「什麼科學的方法？」「你看看我和其他乞丐有什麼不同的地方先？」他，頭髮很亂、衣服很破、手很瘦，但都不髒。他打斷我的思考，說：「人們對乞丐都很反感，但我我看得出來，你對我並不反感，這就是我與其他乞丐的不同之處。」我點頭默認，要不我怎麼同一個乞丐攀談起來。「我懂得swot分析，優勢、劣勢、機會和威脅。我的優勢是不令人反感。機會和威脅都是外在因素，無非是人口多和將要市容整改等。」「我做過精確的計算。這裡每天人流上萬，窮人多，有錢人更多。理論上，我若每天向每人討1塊錢，每月就能掙30萬。但並不是每個人都會給，而且每天也討不了這麼多人。所以我得分析，哪些是目標客戶，哪些是潛在客戶。」他潤潤嗓子繼續說：「在北區，我的目標客戶是總人口流量的3成，成功機率70%。潛在客戶佔2 成，成功機率50%；剩下5成，我選擇放棄，因為沒有足夠的時間在他們身上碰運氣。」「那你是怎樣定義你的客戶呢？」我追問。「首先，目標客戶就像你這樣的年輕先生，有經濟基礎，出手大方。此外還有那些情侶，他們為了在異性面前不丟面子也會大方施捨。其次，我把落單的漂亮女孩看作潛在客戶，因為她們害怕糾纏，多數會花錢消災。這兩類群體，年齡都控制在20~30歲。年齡太小，沒什麼經濟基礎；年齡太大，可能已結婚，財政大權掌握在老婆手中。這類人，根本沒戲，恨不得反過來找我要錢。」「那你每天能討多少錢。」我繼續問。「週一到週五，生意差點，兩百塊左右吧。週末，甚至可以討到四、五百。」「這麼多？」見我有些懷疑，他給我算了一筆帳。「和你們一樣，我也是每天工作8小時──上午11點到晚上7點，週末正常上班。我每乞討1次的時間大概為5秒鐘，扣除來回走動和搜索目標的時間，大約1分鐘乞討1次得1塊錢，8個小時就是480塊，再乘以成功機率60%[(70%+50%)÷2]，得到將近300塊。」「千萬不能黏著人滿街跑。如果乞討不成，我決不死纏濫打。他若肯給錢的話早就給了，就算腆著臉糾纏，成功的機會還是很小。不能將有限的時間浪費在無施捨慾望的客戶身上，不如轉而尋找下一個目標。」強！這個乞丐聽上去真不可貌相，倒像是一位資深的市場營銷總監。「你接著說。」我更感興趣了，看來今天能學到新的東西了。「有人說做乞丐是靠運氣吃飯，我不以為然。舉個例子，百貨司門口，一個帥氣的男生、一個漂亮的女孩，你選哪一個乞討？」我想了想，說不知道。「應該去男的那兒。身邊就是美女，他不好意思不給。若去了女的那邊，她大可假裝害怕你而遠遠地躲開。」「再舉個例子。那天cocopark門口，一個年輕女孩，拿著一個購物袋，剛買完東西；還有一對青年男女，吃著冰淇淋；第三個是衣著考究的年輕男子，拿著筆記本包包。我看了3秒鐘，毫不猶豫地走到女孩面前。女孩在袋子裡掏出兩個硬幣扔給我，並奇怪我為什麼只找她乞討。我回答說：那對情侶在吃東西，不方便掏錢；那個男的是高級白領，身上可能沒有零錢；妳剛從超市買東西出來，身上肯定有零錢。」有道理！我越聽越有意思。「所以我說，知識決定一切！」我聽十幾個總裁講過這句話，第一次聽乞丐也這麼說。「要用科學的方法來乞討。天天躺在天橋上，怎能討到錢？走天橋的都是行色匆匆的路人，誰沒事走天橋玩，爬上爬下的多累。要用知識武裝自己，學習知識可以把一個人變得很聰明，聰明的人不斷學習知識就可以變成人才。21世紀最需要的是什麼？就是人才。」「有一次，一人給我50塊錢，讓我替他在樓下喊『安紅，我想你』，喊100聲。我一合計，喊一聲得花5秒鐘，跟我乞討一次花費的時間相當，所得的酬勞才5毛錢，於是我拒絕了他。」「在深圳，一般一個乞丐每月能討個千兒八百。運氣好時的大概兩千多點。全深圳十萬個乞丐，大概只有十個乞丐，每月能討到一萬以上。我就是這萬里挑一當中的一個。而且很穩定，基本不會有很大的波動。」太強了！我越發佩服這個乞丐了。「我常說我是一個快樂的乞丐。其他乞丐說是因為我討的錢多，所以快樂。我對他們說：錯了，正是因為我有快樂、積極的心態，所以討的錢多。」說得多好啊！「乞討就是我的工作，要懂得體味工作帶來的樂趣。雨天人流稀少的時候，其他乞丐都在抱怨或者睡覺。千萬別這樣，用心感受一下這座城市的美。晚上下班後帶著老婆孩子逛街玩耍看夜景，一家三口其樂融融，也不枉此生了。若是碰到同行，有時也會扔個硬幣，看著他們高興地道謝走開，就彷彿看見自己的身影。」「你還有老婆孩子？」我不禁大聲讚歎，引來路人側目。「我老婆在家做全職太太，孩子念小學。我在福田區十年分期買了一套房，還差六年就還清了。我要努力掙錢，供兒子讀大學念市場營銷專業，然後子承父業當一個比我更出色的乞丐。」「我5年前在微硬中華大區做市場策劃，2年前升為營銷經理，月薪5千。那時按分期付款買了一台1萬多的三星筆記本，每個月還款2千，要死要活的。後來想想這樣永遠也出不了頭，就辭職不幹了，下海做乞丐──我願意做一個高素質的乞丐。」聽完，我激動地說：「你有沒有興趣收我做徒弟……」

I feel the urge...!

2009-04-21T23:25:00.002+08:00

Today I was having my second last paper, PMG which is real boring. SERIOUSLY, some of the questions are really retarted and I don't see any point of having such questions in our paper. I finished everything off in 35 mins and rush out to meet up my friend as I don't have car today. Ohyea, I missed out the "great" part. lolz. Imagine met 4 times of car accidents in a month and I just do not know why all these happening. No doubts, the first and third time were my mistake, but luckily they are only having minor scratchs. So it was real lucky to escape for paying opponent the money... But the second and fourth time are the opponent's wrong. This time I even luckier coz I having the opponent who is owning a garage and he fix me everything for free....! (coz last time there were a few scratchs exactly at the same part he bangs) But still I spend 100+ to repair everything and tomorrow sending car do some maintainance since I found there is something with the car... Just not as smooth as before. I guess the car is aging so it's the time for a new car!! *gasp* ohhhh... ok dad i was kidding... XD

Exams and bad luck stress causing me to feel an ultimate urge for holiday! Oh man... my life was never easy after I started the degree life. There are some unknown factors which always bothering my mind and keeping me in a bad mood. ARGH! So yea, maybe you peoples are right. Hahahahas. Study psycho may makes people psycho. lolz.

HOLIDAY PLEASE~~~ 9 days to go!

late updates...

2009-04-09T01:12:00.016+08:00

This post is done on somebody's request lah. See I am so nice wei... I haven't study yet, I did not completed my reflective writing and did not go to sleep here but sitting here to do this post in the late night! lolz!! So be grateful for this!!

Ok picture says a thousand words... So I'll let the picture speak instead of me. XD (yeah la lazy la what to do? )

Surprisingly we did not spend a single cent on anything that is not necessary... including this thing above la

the five

they think they looks cute... *vomit* XD ( ohyea suddenly i realised why i vomit like hell that day!!)

trust me!! this is did on request of them as well!! ehhh alan what you doing there! not doing together meh????

well I have no idea what is this but looks cute right?? hehe

Bee!! I WILL REMEMBER THIS!! XD

see...! girls so mean weii... making fun of other's suffer... bahh! i will remember these as well!

... and this of coz la... XD thank you lor ok?? hahahhas... although I dun know which one of you coming up with this idea...

Actually I do not really know why we choosed Genting. Nothing much we did... Hanging around, camwhoring those stupid things, chit-chat... and drink a lot. lolz. Everything can also done in KL. Anyway still enjoy this short trip very much although I was really stressful to get everything done before the trip la. Hahahahas.

good news to all the HELP-ian!!

2009-04-06T09:37:00.006+08:00

Below was the email i received this morning.

Dear All

1. Please be informed that the parking space at ECM LIBRA car park is now available for students.
2. Rates charged as follows:
a. RM3.00 per entry (student to produce student ID to enjoy this benefit)
b. Season parking RM88.00 (normal RM138.00)
c. Refundable deposit RM100.00.
d. Replacement of lost parking tag RM100.00
3. Forms are obtainable at Secure Park booths. For informations/clarifications pse contact Vin 012-9063415 or Nick Lee 012-9066527.
4. Request all HODs/Senior Managers/Managers to disseminate this information to the students.

Tks

WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! How fantastic is this?
No more shuttle bus struggles! No more car-park war at the main block...! (that is hell far rite!!)
And most importantly, reducing my risk for being late to class XD

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UPDATE

SWT GUYS,
I just checked with the parking guys and found out that actually ECM LIBRA is also ~~HELL~~ FAR from KPD ... lolz
so I guess not much difference la... beside more car parks XD

wonders...

2009-04-05T02:31:00.001+08:00

People said someone like me who is the eldest should take up the majority jobs in the family. H owever, I do not think so.

People said someone like me who is an adult should remember every single things. However I do not even remember what I ate this morning. SO WHAT??

People said someone like me who is studying psychology should not have any psychological problem.
However I am over stressed, I guess.
DAMN DEPRESSED. Fark.
Why life could not be easier!!!

I a simple person, I deserve some simple life. Where is my life?

tagged again!!

2009-03-31T14:49:00.002+08:00

thanks to alexa laa! for killing my precious time XD

Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions.

What is your name: vince
A four letter word: vice
A boy’s name: val
A girl’s name: valencia
An occupation: Violinist
A color: violet (ohya my fav =D)
Something you’ll wear: vest
A food: vege
Something found in the bathroom: v______ (fill in the blank) (cant think of any la bahh!)
A place: vancouver
A reason for being late: very long jam
Something you’d shout: vowww!
A movie title: vantage point
Something you drink: vivo
A musical group: van zant
An animal: velvet worm
A street name: ...?
A type of car: volvo!
The title of a song: valentine's day

ok lets the NTBD-ness cont'd...

i tag
shine wen hui alan rachel puiyee

A MUST JOIN GLOBAL EVENT!

2009-03-23T01:17:00.004+08:00

EARTH HOUR 2009

http://earthhour.org.my
Vist this website, see we worked out a fantastic website!!!
And look at the people!
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Tell the world that we are united!!!

Join Earth Hour 2009!
Go vote for twin tower to be blackened out!! WOOHOO!!

My vote is no.16660... So how about you?

credit to linz =D

thank you peeps =D

2009-03-18T23:59:00.001+08:00

It is always good to have a date called "Birthday" as all the "LTNS" (long time no see) friends will come to you and say hi. lolz. Yesterday I spend about 2 hours to talk to the old friends at the late night. Suddenly I feel like have lost been the contact with them for so long that I did not realise it has been so so so.............. de long. lolz. Now I am updated with the latest news and even more effective that facebook does. lolz. Believe me friend, a real talk would be really different from messaging only.

I would like to say thank you again and again. (Yes I think this is the day which I say "TQ" the most lolz) Appreciate everything and hoping to see you guys soon! hehe

so many frens did asked me the same question over and over again. "wouldn't you feel bad for did not celebrate the most important birthday in your life?" actually the answer is no. I feel even more meaningful coz this is for my beloved one.

Grandma how are you now? I miss you so much. Even until now I can't totally accept the fact that you left us forever. I want to listen to your stories again. I want see your smile on your face. I want to taste your cooking again......

Anyway there is something real good as well.

DANG DANG DANG!!

MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT FROM MY DAD.

A platinium master credit card!

omg... the credit limit is 30k! wohooooooooooooo

(but actually i worry how if i lost the card?!)

Cutest wish winner goes to... SHINE!!

hehe... for surely I won't do that ok!?

hahahahs.... I am not stupid!
(for your information, she name me as Darren, I used to have this name as well)

random

2009-03-12T23:20:00.005+08:00

Today I have my last paper for the mid term. Well, I am luck enough to have 50% of questions that I answer with full confidence. Hahahahas, at least I pass la, I guess.

But at the afternoon was not so encouraging at all. The lecturer says there is one work who did not full-filled the criteria and going to score very low... OMG. Ok I admit thats I did not pay full attention in class and for this assignment as well. But, hey man, is there anyone who really paying full attention in his class!? Hahahahas, guess not. His class is so boring that no one can tahan! Aiyoooooo... like what bea said. "WBS is shit!" *high five* XD

Again I want emphazise how much I hate all his classes. So now I am proud to give him the honour - the "PHD OF BULL SHIT"!! *applause and cheers* *rofl*

Okok, it might be a bit too much but just to shows how much i hate his class. ( but not the person ok... he is nice)

Currently working on the video. I found its so hard to do after so long I abandoned Window Movie Maker. My group mate Cady intro a higher level program, named CyberLink Power Director which seems to be much useful than WMM. But still its can't solve the biggest problem of mine! Anyone help please? I still can't rotate the stupid video! Baaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!

Ok let's get back to work, or else I can't finish it by tonight... sigh!

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highway frenzy!!

2009-03-04T09:56:00.002+08:00

yesterday was my first time encounter with such situation.
i sat in my car and was playing with my hp for abt 45 mins on the highway...

you must thinking that it is not possible and scolding me mad lolz.
however its true...
i left college at 6 and reached my home at 8+
and its usually takes me 10 mins onli!

blame it all on the stupid KL drain system!

further reading : http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/3/4/nation/3397378&sec=nation

booooooooooo if i know earlier i wont go for the only class yesterday
lolz

lost

2009-02-22T21:30:00.002+08:00

have been cried like a baby for the pass few days.

i still can hardly accept the fact that she has left us forever.

i believed that i have never been crying like this in past 21 years.

but all of us didnt cry a lot in the funeral, as we are actually glad she does not have to suffer any more. she appeared in grandpa's dream, having dinner together with the family. she even told grandpa that she has got well. plus some more ah yong has the same experience too.(in the dream) he was in the lift to some where else with grandma, and there are only two buttons to press. one black and one white. so without doubt he press to the white one. consequently the lift opened and he saw those "thingy" pass by outside the lift but couldnt enter. so we believe that grandma is at some where else better than here. she even can walk too, we believed.

we are sad coz we lost of our beloved family member, but we are glad that she is getting better, we believed that.

rest in peace grandma, we always love you with from the bottom of the heart.

random thoughts

2009-02-16T09:55:00.003+08:00

i was so addicted to the board games but i dun haf time to play it

i wanted to sleep but i dun have time too

i need my money but ppl just dun wan to return/give me the money

i wan to complete my assignment earlier but nvr in my life it happend lolz!

i wan to blog but den seriously i dunno wat to blog...

i wan to concentrete on mid term but so many things are disturbing...

i wan to concentrate on assignment yet my mind was disturbed by that super duper extremly cute gal who i onli saw through some pics! lol!! wondering who is she!

ohh ok blame it all on me

wtf wrong wif me... life is a mess!!

yeah yeah!! i got my old number back =D

2009-02-12T10:31:00.003+08:00

hahahas
after running all ard to look for a shop to get my sim card...
finally!! i got my number back....
hahahahas!!

but still i lost all de contacts T.T

so peeps buzz me at 0172887130 and reveal ur identity automacticlly!! plz!! thx Q!!!

goodbye and goodluck =D

2009-02-11T20:57:00.002+08:00

You know I am talking to you... right?
hahahas
All the best there in aussie!!!

got tagged from alexa... final tag from here in msia XD

2009-02-06T00:54:00.003+08:00

Once you've been tagged, you're supposed to write a note of 10 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 5 people to be tagged.

1. I am very particular when coming to the issues of principles.
2. Favourite color : PURPLE!
3. I don't give opinion when I am in a group, for issues like where to makan or where to lepak lolz.
4. Always imagine HEBE is my beloved wife.... oohh no!! she memang is my beloved wat!! XD
5. Addicted to fried chicken lately... for no reason.
6. Have been emo-ed for the pass 6 months... for no reason oso... and still going!!
aihz
7. Internet service has been cut due to didn't pay the bills for 5 months... ooopsie hehe
8. BIGGEST WISH for now = sleep more!! i wan more sleeps!!
9. I am too "HOT" lately... hahahas... i mean over heat lolz... and ulcers are soooooooo annoying wtf
10. Was waiting for something... and still waiting.

ok i tag u guys
alan pui yee siu mei belle beatrice

annoucement

2009-02-04T20:51:00.002+08:00

i apologize to whom failed to contact me during last few weeks
due to the lost of my hand phone
currently i am using another number for temporary (0193633357)

i will try to get back to the old number asap, latest by next week...
sorry for causing any problems...

harpie burfday to euuuuuuuu =D

2009-02-03T15:51:00.001+08:00

since u were reading my blog so hope u can see this too la XD

happie 19s' =D enjoy and all da best !!

struggles of the 21s'

2009-01-08T17:11:00.002+08:00

AWWWWWWWWWW...! my parent were asking me to plan my 21s' bday celebration again. well i realli dun haf the mood to celebrate this big day as i look into my timetable for the 1st half year again... OMG!! damn packed!!

but man!! its 21s'!! once in a life... and symbolizing the begnning of the adulthood... ummm and more meanings in it. no matter i am doing anything to celebrate it anot, still i would like to save some money and buy sth to my parent, as they have been giving so muc of loves and efforts to make me who i am today... right!? of coz its the time to express your gratitude! LOVE YOU MUCH DAD AND MUM!

ummm... shall i have the party? but anyway i cant wait the day to show my ic to the bouncers!! hahahas!! even they dun ask me i oso going to show them!! hahahahas!!!

BODY ALERT!

2009-01-02T20:08:00.002+08:00

In no time I will be 21. This symbolizing I am grown up, not longer a kid that can manja-ing to parent anymore... and more responsibilities coming up. Well I don't really scare of that. What I am worrying now is my stamina and health condition. I feel like I am an old man now; always tired, headace... and even worse now A BAD FLU! OMG... Endless jobs just don't let go of me even like that. This is the reality. Nothing will stop and wait for you even you fall down.

I gonna boost up my health again as soon as I recovered from this disaster. The new semester is starting soon, but i haven't figured out what subjects to take. XD Just get to know from siu mei's bloggy that the result is delaying... I was like OMG... Then how do I know what to take next sem? This prolong my suffer as I am really worrying I might failed the exams....

ANYWAY BODY IS THE FIRST PRIORITY~! Or else nothing can be done...

x'mas!?

2008-12-22T01:28:00.002+08:00

People have been talking about the christmas celebration with me, while me is really not decisive to make up my mind on how the plan should be. For me it is just another reason to hanging out with friends and have fun. Hahahahas. So any plan for me is ok. Even no plan for me is ok as well, so that would be another ordinary day. Since I am not a christian.

Last chrismas I have been celebrated it with a bunch of crazy guys. Hahahahas. All the ma lat lous hanging out together at the chrismas eve is really weird la... But still we have fun. It's the last time for 4 of us hanging out together since then.

Beside that, all the christmas all being the same to me. A lonely night with a lot of laughther could be heard. Sometimes I being jealous for that. Sometimes I would be happy to save a fortune by did not need to buy anything on that day. lolz. But anyway, I still hope to have the companion to celebrate this meaningful moment.

Oh, merry christmas peeps. =D

bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........!!

2008-12-15T19:27:00.002+08:00

damn damn damn damn...
ok... calm down man... dun let the bad things affect u...

ok my story starting with the car banging incident last week,
which made me cant realli study properly for my exam,
and now i am damn worry for my exams!

den despite all the little problems that bothering...
today my car kena clampped (yes!! the lucky one!! one in a hundred!!) in wisma help
i just don understand why is it me
coz there are probably hundreds of other ppl that parking exactly at the same bay as me
and that cost me another 50 bucks
baaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

ok... now i am rotting in a little shop at lowyat
waiting m laptop to be fix,
after hoursssssssssssss jam in the kl trafic
#@!$#@$#%$^%$^
ok however i am lucky enuf to manage to negotiate with the shop keeper for a cheaper cost
.... but still not worth it la lol

aihzzzzzzzzzzzz
wat bad luck is this!! after all these i am very broke edi!! dun ask me out!!
i need to save money!!

Three Things that Microsoft Can't Explain! Very Interesting Try it out!!‏‏

2008-12-07T16:19:00.002+08:00

MAGIC #1
An Indian found that nobody can create a FOLDER anywhere on the Computer which can be named as 'CON'.
This is something funny and inexplicable… At Microsoft the whole Team, couldn't answer why this happened!
TRY IT NOW, IT WILL NOT CREATE A 'CON' FOLDER

MAGIC #2
For those of you using Windows, do the following:
1.) Open an empty notepad file
2.) Type 'Bush hid the facts' (without the quotes)
3.) Save it as whatever you want.
4.) Close it, and re-open it.
Noticed the weird bug? No one can explain!

MAGIC #3
Again this is something funny and can't be explained… At Microsoft the whole Team, including Bill Gates, couldn't answer why this happened!
It was discovered by a Brazilian. Try it out yourself…
Open Microsoft Word and type

=rand (200, 99)

And then press ENTER
And see the magic…..

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this is quote from a forward email...

and i tried all of that!! its true!!

amazing huh!?

bahhhhhhhh..........!

2008-12-05T18:06:00.002+08:00

lab report is totally a disaster.
i started one week before the due date, and end up by just done it by today afternoon....
OMG
spend about 3 days reading through journals to understand wth is it talking abt
and compiling bit by bit afterward... not easy huh?
today i am going to sleep anyway!! last 2 nights i din sleep properly for this lovely last assignment of the sem!

and guess wat...

finals are coming next week....

ok... will be pak tor-ing with all the books dis weekend again lolz

looking forward to yumcha with u guys!! sheng feng who juz backed from kampar and shi lin who juz backed from sg last nite!! it was so surprising to picked up ur call last nite!! hahahas... and i dun even recognize his voice at the beginning!! OMG how on the earth dis could happen!!?? guess it was coz of the sleepless nights ... hahahas

baby girl, u r so sweet!! =)

2008-12-01T03:26:00.004+08:00

大嘴巴-永远在身边

this song is so sweet!! even the 1st time i listen to it straightly i melt

when aisha singing
Baby boy 永远永远手牵手一步两步一起走永远永远要记得我们要一起生活
hahahas...

later on i found out the original version is from a japanese singer

Soba Ni Iru Ne - Thelma Aoyama Feat. SoulJa

wow... this version is even better!!

coz the in the chinese version rite, the rap is not really fit the music...

but somehow this one is fantastic!!

another version from another japanese singerkokoniiruyo - SoulJa feat. Thelma Aoyamathis time the male singer takes up the major part by rapi dun really like this one as it just not as sweet as the both i mentioned before hahahasanyway lastly!!i present u dis!!

dis is gal who makes me soooo addicted to this song lolzand makes me extreamly jealous as well!! XDbahhhhhh.........!! =Pyala yala i noe u r sooo hang fuk lolz

yes!! u!! follow me!!

2008-11-26T02:15:00.001+08:00

iwantmorepengikutsinmyblogsoyouasmyfriendmustjoin!!!!

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happeee burfday to u~~~ \(^o^)/

2008-11-18T12:33:00.006+08:00

so sad... i dun even haf a pic wif u!!
*sobs*
anyway dis little gal has grown up!!
see!! gorgeous duhhh!!!!

*i guess she is very proud of this "ladyish" look... hahahahas XD*

sadly u r leaving soon (and i noe u r so urged to go aussie!!)

so plz come to the yumcha sessions when linz is backed yeaaa heeheeeeeeeeee

anyway

HAPPY BIRTHDAY little head!! all the best yeaa =D

egoism

2008-11-13T22:56:00.003+08:00

i think everyone that attended LAN classes should be understand wat egoism means.
According to the ego theory, everyone is ego in order to survive in this reality.
well, nth wrong to be ego.
but plz dun over ego... thats scary.

human beings are borned with feelings.
that wats made us diff from animals.
beside ego thats living in the inner part, that should be sth else in our mind...

i was seeking for these traits in u.
however u dissapointed me.

11.11

2008-11-11T11:39:00.003+08:00

today is 11-11-2008...
yes.. now u realize it... hahahas
1 = one = satu = 一 and not equal to two!?
lolz... wat nonsense...
1 represent single!!
so peeps!
TODAY is the NATIONAL SINGLE AWARENESS DAY!

wooooooohooooooooo! lets together we celebrate the freedom that we had!!
hahahahas..

p/s: hopefully not celebrating it again next year XD

assignment assignment and assignment!!

2008-11-10T21:46:00.003+08:00

well well well, i realli haf to admit that bpsych is a tough course to do
some small mistakes may result in a tragedy!!
OMG i dun wan that =(
and finally i realised that APA is god!! hahahahas
too late rite... XD
ok i am gonna sleep, eat, poo, etc with that APA - bpsych bible!!

however this toublesome APA thingy excited me!
i dunno why either...
i was wondering why ppl keep complaining bpsych is sooo tough!
now i noe!
hahahahs!!
i feel challenging!! and i am going to take up the challenges!!

work harder man!! =D

too muz too muz!!

2008-11-04T23:24:00.003+08:00

the halloween partee was amazing!!

despite the long waiting time, everyone was enjoying themself...

unfortunately, my little cammy was kidnapped by MICHELLE!!

so... the photos will be uploading soon yea!!

too muz la too muz la...!!

my "tasks waiting list" is too long edi la... T.T

我错了泪干了放手了后悔了我懂了不说了梦远了

2008-10-31T18:01:00.015+08:00

懂的人会懂
不懂的人懂了也没用。。。

就是有少少灰心+放弃了。。。
一切随缘吧！！

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life has been getting busier and busier... u juz cant stop and get a gud rest..

lucky got stupiak fren that made the day better... =D

PSG was doing some sort of fund raising activity where you can do dedication and show a little bit of love by buying ur fren some small gift

and PSG member siu mei was persuading me to buy sth for her den i look over the list to see wat i can get for her with the only 3 bucks i have (i forgot to bring my wallet to coll that day lolz...!!)

and in the 3 ringgits list there is toilet roll!! i was like OMG... hahahas... anyway dis is fun ritee!! (although to someone its nasty or weird but its fun for us!! hahahahas)

so in the end i buy her the toilet roll!! rofl!! for the 1st time in life giving away toilet roll!!

evidence!! see!! she is damn happy with it riteeeeeee!! hahahahas

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today i went to the filming of some local production named "ROH" (republic of happiness)

to be an extra! woohooooo anyway there are a few "EXTRA FRIENDS" coming along too!

from left elaine , charlene, bong and two nameless extra guys lolz...and i was the camera man la of coz...

it took the whole morning and the afternoon!! and stupidly i locked my carkey in the car!! so cost me another hour to get my another car key from home... damn bad luck weiiiiiiiii....!but anyway the view there is damn nice (there is plaza kelana jaya that near to PKNS)and we had fun doing some stupid things lolz...!

elaine u r blocking laa!! lolz

anyway i managed catch up with jack neo leh....
dis is not my top anyway!! given by the crew... lolz... no wonder so similar to jack la!! dis is his taste of fashion!!

*to be cont... now is the time for the b.psych halloween parteeeeee!!*

holiday afternoon~

2008-10-27T16:32:00.004+08:00

holiday is not as good as u imagine.
u could have lotsa of assignments waiting... just like me lolz.
was stucked in assignment too, so i took a break by writing a post here...

before i started anything...

happie happie burfday to u ~ happie burfday ELAINE! \(^o^)/

hahahas, no matter u can see this anot, still dis is a sincere wish from me =D

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well last week was a nightmare for me,
4 assignments due at the same with accompany with mid term!!
OMG!! you cant imagine the STRESS!! duhhhhhhhh!! felt like i am 3 years older after last week lolz
and the worst part is those sucks assigment team members
they are so irresponsible that they never concern about this assignment at all
not to be mean but i will report them to the department!!
they caused me to delay my assignment submission for the 1st time in my life!!
OMG!! its 20% of the overall marks!!!
DARN!!

ok... chill lolz.. everything has passed anyway

but again caused of the assignment i missed joey's burfday partee too!!
*sobs* T.T
sorreee joey!! i promised to replace u riteee?
i will keep my words ok??
but anyway dun demand too muz ok?? lolz...
recently i am damn poor!! hahahhaas

WHAT'S NEXT FOR ME?

muiz's bday
mamak shopping
CNY activities preparation
JING BIAN
the visit to the teen home
6 assignments coming up!!
compose the lyric for "mere love"!!

more and more coming up as well~~~ swt

I WANT HOLIDAY!!

thanks for the memories!

2008-10-18T23:48:00.002+08:00

well pass few weeks was realli a good time for me
despite of the facts like endless assignments and boring classes
i spend a lot of time "playing a game"

even though i do not gain anything from this game
but still i enjoy the whole process while playing along...

thanks anyway for appeared in my life
no matter how is it going to be =)

best describe me at the moment~

2008-10-15T12:35:00.002+08:00

Ne-Yo - Closer

Closer

Verse 1:

Turn the lights off in this place

And she shines just like a star

And I swear I know her face

I just don't know who you are

Turn the music up in here

I still hear her loud and clear

Like she's right there in my ear

Telling me that

She wants to own me

To control me

Come closer (closer)

Come closer

Chorus:

And I just can't pull myself away

From the respect I can make

I just cant stop

And I just can't bring myself away

But I don't want to escape

I just can't stop

Verse 2:

I can feel her on my skin

I can taste her on my tongue

Shes the sweetest taste Ive seen

The more I get the more I want

She wants to own me

Come closer

She says "come closer"

Chorus:

And I just can't pull myself away

clean your mind!! everything has oledi cleared!!

2008-10-08T19:53:00.005+08:00

WAKEEEEEEEEEEEE UP YOU STUPID......
do u noe that u have over the borderline!!??

there are so many things else that u have to do!!

random post

2008-10-08T02:25:00.002+08:00

2007 and 2008 are weird for me.
many things happend, but endwithout any sign.

just like now.

i dunno whether i having a real bad luck or good luck!

in 3 months time, my water dispenser, 3 tvs(yeah!! 3!!! OMG) and a loads of other things spoiled and caused to spend quite amount of money!!

but fotunately i found that i do have some special luck as well... that... i could not imagine.

AH....... uncertainties again!! bother me a lot laaaaaaa......... booooooooooooo! (lolz... i learnt this from u alexa!!)

yes and so wat??

2008-10-06T00:38:00.000+08:00

yes i am single and so wat?
that doesnt means that i am gay or wat... just that i havent met with the right one!!

relationship is more than happy together or liking for me

for me its love, caring, understanding, and a commiment for a life time

i wouldnt risk myself into any uncertain relationship

definitely

i am not sure that whether i am considering too muz
but i am very sure that i am doing the right things

life's easier with SOTness and ONGness

2008-10-02T03:29:00.002+08:00

SOT_ness means you have to get involved in everything and fully enjoy it

ONG_ness doesnt mean u have to be insane or crazy or stupid...!! but u noe, sometimes nth wrong to pretend stupid to entertain others...

so thats why sotong came out... heeeeeheeeeeee

new appearance, hopefully u guys like it =D

HENNESY ARTISTRY + connaught pasar malam

2008-10-02T01:58:00.005+08:00

well i havent got a chance to blog on some of my last week interesting's hang-outs

coz the pic are still not in my hand *tsk*
well shayne ward realli rocks the crowd @ the hennesy artisry last sat!!
and oso until june, they are great too... now beginning on searching their songs...
the onli bad part is that i couldnt fully enjoy the free flow of hennesy cocktails!! *thanks to u bro lahhh!! bro!!*

shayne ward looks real cool!! right gals? XD

well after all i realised that i din realli like the taste of hennesy lolz *soreeeee hennesy* although i finished up few cups heeeheeeeeee

more pics are coming soon... stay tune =)

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well today is the raya holiday (ooops... its ytd... past twelve lolz)

so i din realli wan to went out to trapped in the crowd and the long traffic jam

but i went to connaught pasar malam for the very first time with kiko and alan *i dun wan either to be a "light bulb" but i realli wanted to go the most GRAND pasar malam in msia*

the first impression to this pasar malam is

PEOPLE MOUNTAIN PEOPLE SEA (lolz u will understand dis if u understand chinese)

according to both of them we choosed the wrong time coz today (oopss soreee again!! ytd!!) was hari raya holiday, so everyone went on a shopping spree there la...

okiess... hopefully next time i got a chance to visit there again~~

SUPER LONG PASAR MALAM
*special thanks to hot-screensaver.com*

i not realli got a chance to take pic coz it was realli packed
and even u cant realli buy things @ there
coz the crowd keep pushing u from behind!!
its realli hard to even stay longer... super hot + super tiring...

and i notice an interesting fact hahahas...
peoples actually make-up and dress nicely for pasar malam
hahahahahahas
i never do that in my life... and it was not so obvious in my previous experiences @ other pasar malams
those gals are actually HEAVILY MAKE UP, with long artificial eyes-brown and even with perfume on!! walao ehhh... sounds like going clubbing right!! lolz...
and even guys are nicely dress oso...

eeeehhhhhhhemmmmmmmmm anyway
a lot lenglui-s there la, more den HELP... lolz

tired

2008-09-25T21:19:00.008+08:00

It has been a long long way of searching.

I thought I found my own path.

I thought I am keep moving forward.

I thought I am getting closer to my dream.

Never felt tired until today.

Today I ask myself again.

"Are you happy?"

I used to answer,

"Just for a while, dear, the happiness is just waiting you ahead."

Today I answered,

"No. I am not happy. I don't even know what am I fighting for."

This is the saddest thing in the world.

You spend a lot of time and power on it, and lastly you found this is something you wanted.

I am tired.

Tired of doing this and that.

Tired of pushing myself unwillingly again and again.

Tired of walking all alone these days without knowing why.

Who is going to tighten up the string for me? I really don't know.

long taggie

2008-09-24T13:23:00.003+08:00

well the bad fren diane is juz beside me now
and keep influencing me to not do assignment but the tag from pearly lolz...
so i was struggling
the bad vince said, " juz go ahead!! juz FOR A WHILE onli la!!"
and good vince said not to do anything before u finish the assignment

guess wat, the bad vince won lolz

ok here we go

1. what's the relationship of you and her/him ?
FRIEND LA

2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him ?
ummm... very fussy in term of food, hyper, die hard for sugar?(dis is wat she said lolz) and NICE of coz =)

3. The most memorable things she/he have said to you
"merry x'mas!" lolz, the 1st sms from her

4. The most memorable things she/he had done for you
for giving such a long taggie lolz

5. If she/he became your lover, you will..
wa.... dis question cant be answered lolz

6. If she/he become your enemy, you will...
force her to eat greenie muahahahhas

7. If she/he become your lover, she/he has to improve on..
to eat more green, green is good for ur health la plz

8. If she/he become your enemy, the reason is..
ummmmmmmmm... could u tell me? i cant think of any

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is ?
to force her eat greens lolz omg again

10. The overall impression of him/her is...
sometimes emo, sometimes crazy, sometimes hyper...

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you ?
dunno? u gotta ask them

12. The character of you for yourself is ?
well i am such a complicated one, changing from time to time...

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is ?
NOT DETERMINE ENOUGH

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is ?
the one who always trying to get perfect

15. For the people who care about you and likes you, say something about them.
LOVE U ALL MUACKS hahahahas

Ten people to tag-
1. alan
2. belle
3. cyan
4. gracie
5. kiddo
6. linz
7. alexa
8. tin tin
9. hui
10. meow

who is no.2 having a relationship with ?
-lolz i wanted to noe too

no.3 is a male or female ?
- obviously.... male... ooops soreeeeeee a lady la lolz

if no.7 and no.10 were together, would it be a good thing ?
- no lolz

how about no.5 and no.8 ?
-NO!! OMG

what is no.1 studying about?
- he wan to study finance la

is no.4 single ?
- i think so, wan her hp no??

FINALLY!! GAO DIM

FORWARD EMAIL AGAIN

2008-09-23T18:40:00.002+08:00

Picked from a email:
WARNING : DON'T OFFER DUIT KOPI FROM NOW ON!
DEAR FRIENDS

If you have ever paid or are thinking of paying ' Coffee Money' when stopped for traffic or other offences, DON'T EVER Do This Again. The traffic department (JPJ) has recently started a campaign to be rid of corruption.

Every Officer on duty will be rewarded with RM100.00 if they report each case of bribery to the department. This is how they do (trick you into) it.

They will note down the details of your IC/MyKad, and ask you how you want to settle ( 'Macam mana nak selesai?') If you indicate yes or even offer to give them any money, they will report the incident by rejecting your 'Kopi Money' and get the RM100.00 instead as an incentive for their integrity and 'Honest' pubicity. This means that You will end up having a summon issued to you and perhapsa charge for bribery.SO DON'T PAY DUIT KOPI AGAIN, especially if you hope to go free with a lesser amount of money compared to the fine.

Even if you want to pay over RM200, the JPJ Officers would rather have a 'good' name than to take your kopi money.

Just beware of their trick because the cops are now accumulating 'cookies' points for their promotion and pay increment - with your help if possible.

They should have done this to stop corruption long time ago... but anyway it's better late than never, right?

SPREAD THIS MESSAGE TO EDUCATE OTHERS ON THIS NEW ANTI-RASUAH POLICY! AND DON'T YOU DARE TO CORRUPT ANY JPJ OR EVEN POLICE OFFICERS AGAIN!

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wooohooooooooo! credits to one who came out with this idea!! brilliant!!
this stops the cops for committing corruption effectively and ensure the fairness of the enforcement...
the onli disadvantage is... the gov spend more lolz...

although dis action cant stop realli *BIG* deal, but eventually all little little parts will be ok la hahahahas...

RAJA PETRA ROCKS!!

2008-09-20T21:45:00.004+08:00

if u noe me realli well then u noe that i never comment abt politic in my blog since the gov band us from doing that ( and i am someone who realli kiasi lolz XD).

but this time i realli have sth to say

i have been affected by ppl surrounding since i was small, therefore i got a little prejudice towards races. however, the situation changed when i noe more. i found that many of my malay frens actually very nice, and even some of them realised and admitted that the unfairness of the policies in our country.

i was realli surprised when i met the 1st malay fren who said so, and later on i found out more.

actually none of us (chinese, indians and other races) are able to make any changes in this country. RAJA PETRA stand out and voice everything out. eventually he got supported by many malays as well. i am realli grateful by having such open minded ppl in our country. they will change our country, and bringing us into a new era. ONE MALAYSIA that realli able to be an advanced nation by 2020.

i have seen the beam of light that will bring us a better future. =) and hopefully i wont get arrested coz this post lolz.

got tagged XD

2008-09-16T14:31:00.005+08:00

it has been quite a long time since my last tag!! so, alexa thanks for giving me a reason to blog!! lolz...

6 Things I'm Passionate About:
-psych!!
-family and friends
-SLEEP!!! (i wan to SLEEP!!!)
-Part time job (hey i am not workaholic okay? but i need money =P)
-mamak shopping ( of course............!! )
-yum cha

6 Things I Say Too Often:
-lolz
-anything
-whateva!!
-muahahahas
-awwwwwww
-hi, bye (lolz, i noe this is lame... XD)

6 Books I've Read Recently :
-textbook
-textbooks
-textbookss
-textbooksss
-textbookssss
-textbooksssss
*burried with textbooksssssssssssssssssssssssssss*

Songs That I Can Listen To Again and Again:
-wo bu nan gua ~ stephanie sun
-wait for you ~ elliot yamin
-ni men shi wo de xing guang ~ xing guang 2 ban
-sha gua ~ landy
- with you ~ chris brown
-It's my life ~ bon jovi

Things I Learned In The Past Year:
-you should never waste time for sleeping (awwwwwwwwww... but i love to sleep!!)
-good friends are hard to find
-patience and wisdom is needed for success
-HELP is really sucks @ their facilities and services (lolz!!!!)

6 Bloggers I Tag:
-alan
-sam
-pearlz
-little lamb
-meow meow
-jon ti (blog plz!!!!!!)

reflective writing - week 2

2008-09-16T09:19:00.002+08:00

Today is an interesting day. Miss Pei Li had a very interesting test with us. It is very hard to put myself into any group because I always have a perception that I have multiple personalities. Aha, I know that sounds ridiculous but yes I am always have a thought like that.

Surprisingly I am in the entrepreneur workshop! Well recently I have been thinking to start up my own business, but is it really that soon to changes my personality? According to Miss Pei Li, you may have some of the traits in the two personalities beside your workshop, and the one opposite is a totally different one. But I think I have some the traits of the opposite one which is investigative.

I had always love science and I am always very into something new and have the desire to know more about it. I am a problem solver as well, as I can never sleep or rest without get the problems settled. Paradoxical… yes I am. I liked unstructured but I always have a thought that human beings cant lived unstructured. Everyone has to be in the line so that the peace can be maintained. I love jump into crowds but yet I can keeping myself alone in a room for whole day. I loved to listen to people and I will never get bored with stories. I care for how people feel. Sigh, sounds like I am a mixture of everything.

I just could not understand why I have so many traits. My 'personalities' are very seasonal; they will turn up someday which I can not control at all. I think that is what made up my complicated mind. I always have too much of thoughts in mind.

However, I just can't deny that I am an entrepreneur. Meeting the people in the group just feeling like meeting yourself. Miss Pei Li said "these people are born to manage people!" Aha, maybe that is what I am. I always know that is a very bossy Vince in my inner heart but I always control it very well. I knew that no one can stand a bossy and fussy one. I think that is why I came out with so many 'personalities' so that I can communicate well with everyone. It's always good to be neutral as you can receive more with open minded.

Honestly, I can not full-filled the being honest part. I had always tried to be one those trustworthy, but only stops at the point I keep my words. Reality keeps telling me that you can not survive if you exposed too much. This does not mean you have to keep some hidden agenda but generally you can not be honest in everything. I think these worries are pretty normal as everyone scared to be hurt. Hopefully one day I will be happily being really 'honest' without the fear of exposing too much.

I think a lot in this class but there are too many of them. Some of them just faded away when another one came in. I have tried to recall them but that caused me to headache. Maybe there are too many things that you can not put into words.

Reflective Writing – Week 1

2008-09-16T09:19:00.001+08:00

As being in the first class in this new semester, I am very excited to adapt for new information. However, the subject's name, Career Guidance doesn't sounds like a subject that related to psychology. Therefore, sorry to says that I am lack on interests to this subject at the very beginning.

Our beloved lecturer Miss Pei Li just came in right at the time. After she has introduced herself, she is trying explains us the purpose of this class and telling us what we need to know. As the time going, slowly I found out that we are actually in a class that trying to lead us to search for what we need in the future, but not what I have in my mind before.

Miss Pei Li has recalls the problems that I have considered a long time before I entered this field. It's always a very crucial decision to made, whether you work for money or dream. I have always heard of people saying "go for your dream, money is nothing." Yes, generally I do agree with that, because one who living his dream definitely the happiest person in the world as he enjoys the highest satisfactory.

However, there is always an exception. My father tells me that it is not necessary to have your interest as your job. An interest would be easier remains as an interest. How if a designer gets frustrated with design one day just because of the fussy customers, or other random things? I do not want to give up psychology as I already dreaming to be a psychologist for years. So I have been considering through these questions.

Finally I came to a conclusion one day. I am told my father that maybe the designer did not position his dream in the first place, or in another words, he does not has the enough passion for it. Ones will work full hearted to fulfill his dream, but not giving up easily by the time he is facing the problems. It’s always important to find a balance point between these facts.

Another issue was money. I am not mean to be realistic but we can never out of touch with the reality. The fact is we need money to survive. My father has always telling me that money is nothing, but without money you can do nothing too. This always reminds me my worries for my career. Currently I am not sure what I have to do in future, but I am quite confidence with our department on their effort to find us the best career.

I think all of us have gone through the same problems, and have the same worries in general. I think that is why our department came out with this course to solve our problems. It's always nice to have someone to guides you through out all the process.

Finally, credits to Miss Pei Li for coming out with the idea of bonus activities. All the activities, for instant, Vienna test, counseling, etc are very good chance for us to figure out how exactly all these work.

I took the road that less traveled and hopefully outcome with something I wanted.

i am backed =P

2008-09-09T21:46:00.003+08:00

finally de' vincious blogger started his life as a lousy blogger again...
hahahhas...

these months i lived a realli busy life,
continuous working hard for money money and money...
can u imagine the life that u have less than 6 hours of resting time a day!!!??
even with almost 7 days non-stop!!

but after all thats all worth for it
its not all abt money, its abt experience too
i learnt a lot, and i think a lot too
its good to live a diff life, that i will nvr ever experience again (hopefully lolz)

i was watching tv juz now, and surprisingly i found i cheers like a kiddo when i saw my lovely darling was on the show (hiak hiak hiak... have been missing her terriblely!!)
and their new album is coming soon, which made me so excited!!

i am glad that to found that i still cheers for a little thingy like dis =)
at least, i am still myself at the inner part

next up = a refelection writing that given my lovely career guidance lecturer lolz
stay tune guys hahahahs
its goin to be the 1st assignment that complete in my bloggie

I AM SO PROUD TO BE CHINESE!!

2008-08-10T01:39:00.002+08:00

everyone is in the olympic fever now
neither me, the busy working part time sales assitant
muahahahahas
and i was rushing back ytd for the opening ceremony that i have been waited for so long!!

what i wan to say is : GOOD JOB CHINA!
i am so proud to be a chinese!
although i found some small mistakes but overall well done!
those creative performance not only attracts the ppl from all ard the world,
but also tells the world abt the great part in chinese cultural,
which i think is meaningful and interesting!

AWWWW... cant wait to finish my part time job and concentrate on so many of the exciting games!!

klcc pc fair - work force needed!!! ARE YOU IN???

2008-07-26T11:03:00.003+08:00

well actually now i am in pavillion (working la...lolz)
so i am in a rush la!!
anyway, dis is a annoucement from me

i am now urgently need man power to work in
KLCC PC FAIR starting from 1st AUG to 3rd AUG
i need few more promoters
the pay is 80 per day, 2 meals included
no training or interview needed
preferably speak fluently in BM and english

whoever interested plz contact me @ 0172887130 (vince)

its on next friday!! so be hurry yea guys!!!

oh damn i like it!!

2008-06-20T05:06:00.002+08:00

lol guys check dis video!!

its soooooooooooooooooo ridiculous muahahahahas

breaking news! PETROL PRICE IS RAISING TONIGHT!!

2008-06-04T18:27:00.003+08:00

i heard this from a daddy's friend who is the owner of a petrol station
the latest price is rm2.70 per litre

den i wen to check in THE STAR's website
and its true!!

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/6/4/nation/20080604175025&sec=nation

so my friend rush to petrol station laaa!!
wat r u waiting???

wohoooooooooo shanghai i am coming!!

2008-05-25T01:09:00.001+08:00

yeah yeah yeah
i am packing my stuff now
and i think this will be a great trip
coz we have so many ppl going with us
and the best part is...

we monopoly the whole gang!!
hahahahhas =)

cyasss peeps~

wohooooooo last tag from PEARLZ

2008-05-02T05:49:00.002+08:00

Instructions: remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. who is your all-time inspiration?
same as below

2. have you given your first kiss away?
muahahhaahs

3. if you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? why?
*ehemmmmmm*
pearlz - she is a nice person to talk wif hehe
verene - with she life is nvr boring hahahas
jon ti - probably he will has some chivas or vodka with him.... hahahas

4. where is the place that you want to go the most?
same as below

5. if you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
same as below

6. do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
same as below

7. what are you afraid to lose the most now?
same as below

8. if you win $1 million, what would you do?
same as below

9. if you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
same as below

10. list out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
she is charming she is nice she is kind-hearted XD

11. 3 weird stuff about myself
errrr... i like to put on the thick blanket in a air-cond room (so wat is the air-cond for? lolz)
err.... i cant stop when i start doing sth until the end
errrrrrr......... i have two extremly diff of thinking

12. which type of person do you hate the most?
same as below

13. what is your ambition?
same as below

14. if you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?I
same as below

15. what do you think is the most important thing in your life?
same as below

16. are you a shopaholic or not?
same as below

17. state one of your desire.
same as below

18. if you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
same as below

19. whats the latest bad news you've seen or heard?
same as below

20. what do you wish to have now?
same as below

finally i fnish all tags!! wohooooooooooooooooooo \(^o^)/

another tag from alexa

2008-05-02T05:39:00.002+08:00

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
after 30 probably

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
day dreaming lol

3. If you have a close close close close friend since childhood who loves to take away whatever you like, including guys/girls, and he/she always wins, will you still consider him/her your friend?
lolz... dis is not a fren to be

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
make me taller please( hey alexa i have the same dream!!)

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
no.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
same as below

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
same as below

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
same as below

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
alexa... err.... most probably... pendek? (ps: i like gals who is pendek lol), ridiculous and nice person hehe

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
same as below

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
same as below

13. What is your ambition?
same as below

14. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
the ACTS

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
same as below

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
same as below

18. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
OMG...sadly i dun have one now ><

19. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
successfully in career and having a nice relationship with a nice gal ?

20. Do you think you get hungry because you’re cold, or cold because you’re hungry?
swt... wats lame question is this

stop de game plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz................ ><

1st TAG - verene punya

2008-05-02T05:21:00.004+08:00

Instructions: remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal
question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list
them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has
been tagged. whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. who is your all-time inspiration?
hmmm.... no idea lol

2. have you given your first kiss away?
hahahas... wats in ur mind?

3. use one word to describe urself
extreme

4. where is the place that you want to go the most?
taiwan!!

5. if you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
to have 48 hours in one day

6. do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yea! and i seen it before!!

7. what are you afraid to lose the most now?
i cant afford to lose anything now....

8. if you win $1 million, what would you do?
probably gif it to my father (i am serious weiii!)

9. if you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
until i met someone that i realli loving so muz

10. list out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
a cheerful person, a nice fren to be with and u can nvr stop smilling
beside her hahahas

11. what are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
understanding, patient, kind- hearted

12. which type of person do you hate the most?
People who treats friends for benefit and also liar..

13. what is your ambition?
psychologist

14. if you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to
you or would you rather they keep quiet?
well... i prefer him to talk to me personally lolz

15. what do you think is the most important thing in your life?
My friends.

16. are you a shopaholic or not?
depends lol

17. state one of your desire.
to have a lot of money!!

18. if you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to
change?
laziness lol

19. whats the lastest bad news you've seen or heard?
currently I should say there’s nothing..

20. what do you wish to have now?
cash!

i will not tag anyone to stop this terrible game hahahas

魂牵梦系翻腾难奈 ... 好久都没了 =P

2008-04-04T20:03:00.003+08:00

一直奉行感情主义的我在思想上起了变化
变得有些物质主义起来
可能是环境的化学作用慢慢腐蚀灵魂的内层
还是...
我的灵魂根本没有回来过?
还在流浪与星尘天际之间?

哭喊迷失的灵魂
在蝎子的巨钳下跪倒求饶
不求苟活也不求一死
他要的是什么?
为什么不回来?

他回来过
只是...又走了
世界上似乎没什么能牵挂的东西
他选择离开
他选择坦然
他选择再生
他想要从来

他再造一个像自己的灵魂

last day @ HMC

2008-04-01T20:10:00.003+08:00

its hard to believe that
tmr is my last day @ hmc...
a place that full of memories

happiness
sadness
nervous
dissapoinment
fun
excitement
and...
most importantly...

friendship

i think i am gonna so miss u guys

i juz cant stand the feeling when its the time to leave >.<

连心

2008-03-08T17:40:00.007+08:00

最近娱乐界的焦点
一就是放在陈冠希的事件上
一就是放在沈殿霞离世的消息上
不愿多谈陈冠希的是是非非
我认为后者时间的影响对我更大

期间发生的事情我也不多提了
我把焦点放在郑欣宜和沈殿霞的关系上
相信他们的关系一定十分密切
我这一辈子最不能抵挡的就是真挚情感的震撼
我相信这样的力量
才是人世间影响最大的力量

印象最深的是这歌曲

它牵动着心底最深处的悸动

我没哭

我从来都不喜欢用哭来表达自己

如果我有机会站上人生最神圣的舞台

我的婚礼上

一定把这首歌送给我最深爱的那一个

也许对大家会讶异

它是首女儿送给母亲最后的悼歌

但是对我而言

连心

是表达两个人之间的联系非常紧密结合的一首歌

婚礼和葬礼同样是人生神圣的舞台

在葬礼上你会表达对一个人最深切永远的思念

我在婚礼上用这首歌

表达对一个人的最深切永远的爱意

现阶段我对感情还有些不确定...

希望有一天

我能用全心全意唱出

"我就在你身边一切为你承担

我们俩的心手相连共度年复一年..."

hey! its ur birthday!!

2008-03-07T12:29:00.004+08:00

wow great day isnt it?
hahahahas....
well actually today is my lunar calendar bday!!
today is 30th Jan in the lunar calendar...
and the special part of it is that...
30th Jan onli appears once in a four years lunar calendar
so...
2008 is so special becoz it's a leap year!!
wooohooo!!

ohyea regarding why i notice abt that coz my family onli celebrate my lunar calendar bday
they din refer to solar calendar (the calendar that we are using now)

and happy birthday to all the march babes oso!!

1st march - sheng feng (go get a gf lar!!)
2nd march - cammy (wow... u r getting realli hot!! =P )
8th march - pearly (happy together wif ur boi boi yea! *blink* )
15th march - shuang shuang (looking forward to see u...)
21st march - sushi (aihzz... forgot abt me when getting together with him... aihzzz)
22nd march - snowxwhite (currently msia hottest chinese female blogger! all the best for ur stpm and ur interview as well!)

i hope i din missed out anyone... =P

march babes rock!!
happy birthday everyone!!

"dak han yum cha...!"

2008-03-06T15:58:00.000+08:00

during ths psych class i received an msg from a unknown number
"hey! i am in ss2 now lar!!"
i was like... huh? whos that?
so i replied
"umm... sorry who r u?"
"i am huey yin!"
"sorry again... i am not sure which huey yin u r... and did i ask u out before?"
"huey yin thats from same class with u! actually i juz past by ss2 and wan to see whether u r here anot..."

can u imagine how i felt?
"WARM"
its a "WARM" text

as u can see... i dun even haf her number
so i think u can figure out that we are not so close to each other before
but still she rmb me after such a long time
(i have been gratuated from secondary for 2 years)

u guys maybe experienced the same thing as me
not matter how fren both u were last time
after gratuated...
sooner and later
both of u will be seperated by time and space
well thats normal i noe
but i am more "feeler" type of person
who is very sensitive...
therefore i really cant stand this kind of feeling

so do text or phone ur fren regurlarly
ask them out
rmb the "imp" dates
at least....! msn lar (cheapest and easiest way)
this is so call "mutual stroking" (yeah ms debbie i am applying wat u taught lol)

ohyea i forgot abt my title... "dak han yum cha"
i bet all of u understand wat it means right?
we tend to end our conversation wif "dak han yum cha" usually
which means "hanging out again next time"
its juz sth like see u ard, see u again, "zai jian", "jumpa lagi"... etc

but dunno why i alwaz take dis very serious
when u say this to me, i am realli taking it seriously
unfortunately many ppl saying it juz like simply to end the talk
arrggggghhhhhhhhhhhh
i dun like it
(and i think gals are more tend to do so lol)

i have a dream...

2008-03-01T23:49:00.000+08:00

"i have a dream..."

yea dis is martin luther king's style
he used to begin his speech everytime with this
many ppl oso following dis trend after him

i have a dream
where ppl live happily together
i have a dream
where the world can enjoy the peace together
i have a dream
where all my dreams can be fullfilled!! (too greedy huh...? bluek =P )

i have a dream ... i have a dream...

dream keeps motivate us to move forward
let's shout out...

i have a dream!!

wats ur dream?

happy family... gone

2008-03-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

well i used to have a happy family,
consists of 2 lovely sister, sushi and shuang shuang,
and my dude sheng feng oso

currently,
shuang shuang is pursuing her dream at usa
sushi is studying in nilai
sheng feng oso moved to kampar recently

i missing u guys a lots...
i promised shuang to keep our family complete...

i hope we will reunion one day =)