故事从这里开始。

那年我还是高一。一如往常，颓废而没有意义的日子一直延续。这是2004的最好写照，四就是死，

死鱼一样的生活像梦魇一样纠缠着我。那是我认为在人生中最大的空白。现在回想起来，那年我做过些什么，认识什么人，上过哪些课，竟然是异常的模糊。最清晰的是一直沉浸在虚拟的世界中不断按着滑鼠，企图希望刺激能摆脱一身的无力感。

中午12时是每天的午餐时间，总是一堆朋友一起走到那食堂里的铁制长桌上。端着一碗一碗白烟袅袅，热腾腾的汤面或是饭食到桌上是一天我最期待的20分钟。有什么比一群好友一起废话连天，大快朵颐还要痛快？

豁然，一对陌生又熟悉的背影从身边闪过，停留在我正前方的桌子坐下。刹那间，我终于体会到所谓的晴天霹雳是什么意思。体会和明白是截然不同的两个阶段，就像是小孩明白成人世界背后的残缺，但是永远不能体会那切身的无奈。虽然事情依然发生而我也已经接受现实，但是活生生的刺激在眼前出现时还是无法妥协那份内心的伤痛。胸腔前仿佛是有一颗无形的大石压着，第一次觉得呼吸都是痛的表现。

生平第一次我停下筷子，留下满碗的遗憾先行离开。留下满桌的错愕和怀疑的眼神。大概谁也没有见过我这个标准的贪吃鬼竟然留下吃不完的食物。认识我深的人都知道我视浪费为最大的罪恶，从来不肯浪费每一颗辛苦。但是那天，真的，我真的咽不下去。

今天我依然清清楚楚记得那份感觉。时空不能倒退，但是情绪可以从演。还以为自己已经是感情麻木的铁石心肠，结果那份痛楚还是一样鲜明。不需要同样的时间地点人物，金迷纸醉多姿多彩的世界依然对我依然残酷。

不同的是今天的我毅然接受。因为我从来都没有资格多说些什么。撕心裂肺地痛过才知道自己真正的活过，对吗？

it's the season again.

There is a season when couples start to make up.

There is a season also when the couples start to break up.

I guess it's the season now.

The BAD LUCK SEASON.

1 best friend just broke up with the girl friend.

3 best friends are stuggling in a relationship.

More friends are even fear of relationship.

And also they are so many people out there are in bad mood. You-know-who-you-are.

OMG. I hate this season. =(

imperfection

We do not need to learn how to love a perfect person.

That's in our nature, always seeking for the best one.

TO LOVE, is to accept everything including the bad one.

That's why we need love.

We are all beautifully imperfect.

But trust me, that's what makes love more beautiful.

Tribute to the late Yasmin Ahmad. R.I.P.

歌。情绪

我不能说是她忠实的歌迷

但是确实

她曾经深深唱到我的心坎

一些能发泄情绪的歌

实在是太可遇不可求了

emo is my inspiration.
最近灵感多到倾泻但是苦于没有适合的时间地点人物让我好好发泄一下情绪
可悲呵呵

茫

该哭？

该笑？

第一次真的哭笑不得。

事情那么不明朗

那么就继续

面无表情

无题

急速旋转的铜铃在一声巨响后

回荡在路边的声响绕梁三日

阴魂不散

是执著？

是坚持？

是无知？

也许沉浸在旋转的晕眩根本没有理由可言

thank Him for protected me wor =D

I can't believe I survived this accident.

We were on the Jalan Mahameru (which is one of the busiest road in KL) and eventually the car was lost control and drift on a straight highway!

Our car actually did bumped to the divider then bang into the lamp post.

As you can see in the picture.

Our car is totally facing another direction of the road.

The lamp post was broke and fall down.

We are so lucky because of the 5 reasons below:

1. None of us is seriously hurt.

2.This accident does not involved any second party.

3.The fallen lamp post did not fall into the opposite highway but in between of the divider.

4.We were first bumped into the divider. This stops us from go into the opposite highway.

5.Our car is not followed closely by another car. (Another one more bang means BYE BYE!!)

The situation won't be any better. So thank God la. Hahahahahas. Although you did not pray for me. XD

P.s. I am alright beside the minor injuiry at my left leg. The wound is quite deep and kena the bone i guess. But it's ok la, the leg also numb already. Hahahahahas. So I still can walk la. Something wrong with the right leg as well but I have no idea why. lolz.

exhausted

i am real tired, both physically and mentally.

These few days I was bombarded with lot of problems and works.

Some very kacao-ing. Some very mafan. Some very confusing. Some can be never solved.

Some I do not even know how to solve.

HEAVY SIGH.

Ok, anyway I still gotta work it out.

If you believe you can, you can. Vince.... GO!

complicated.

I have no idea what to do next.

It just feel like I was dumped from another peak to the rock bottom.

Thank you for my wishful thinking.

You gave me the dreams and at least for the few days I was really happy.

Now, it's the time back to routine.

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